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I just finished my second job and I'm heading to my third one. It was a pretty good day—I finally made a friend at work, and I feel an urgent need to improve my speaking skills, which I’ve neglected for a while. My assignment is almost done, and my final full-time job is now stabilized.

So, what’s next? Maybe I’ll marry Ali. I used to think a man's appearance was important to me, but that’s not the case anymore. However, Ali is far away, and his sadness is a big concern for me. His therapist mentioned that he deeply feels lonely, which is why he often surrounds himself with friends. This realization hit me hard. I always had a sense of it, but now it’s clearer than ever, and it really affects how I feel about him, and honestly, the feeling isn’t good. 

Maybe it’s normal to feel unsure about marriage, or maybe it’s not. I might need to look up stories online about people in similar situations.